Time to switch it Up

I have noticed actually just today that all my blogs..well not all but most of my blogs have been emotionally geared towards one subject....my sucky love life. So I feel the need to discuss something other than love. Well, I have started on the path to re-enter school and hopefully in a few short months, I will be back in the classroom(behind the computer more like it). I know this isn't really a big deal because people do it everyday. But it is to me, I've been running for God knows what for the past three years and I just need to stand on solid ground for once. I've done a lot of things I regret to get to where I am today. Trust me I am not too happy where I am at all. The funny thing is I know I am capable of so many great things. I am not stupid in any way and I have opportunities. I just need to try and I haven't been. I can't even admit that to my parents but I am writing a blog for anyone to see or read. *Sighs*
Well basically what I am trying to say is that there is no time like the present. I am tired of being scared and helpless and allowing others to do for me. I am going to take my place in this terrifyingly big world and try to find who I am and where I belong. I just hope I like the person that I am 'supposed' to be. Anyone is better that what I have grown to be and I need change. That's 2009 is supposed to be all about Change. My girlfriend constantly says, 'be the change, you want to see in the world'. I guess I never really thought about it.
I guess all I can say now is wish me luck. I have quite a journey in front of me. I'll see you at the crossroads.